September 27, 2017 by Drafts & Crafts
I am now 32 weeks pregnant and feeling all of the feels so I thought a little update was in order.
I have truly enjoy journaling my pregnancies! I have so many thoughts and feelings that writing them down has helped me gather my emotions throughout this journey. On a side note, I also use my Promptly Journal to actually write things down because there is nothing like taking pen to paper. Today marks 32 weeks of growing baby Colding number dos. It has been an emotional few weeks over here. I just have to say, pregnancy is emotional. Even when everything is going pretty well, it is still emotional. I saw a really funny quote the other day that pretty much sums up pregnancy, “I am 32 weeks pregnant and not to brag or anything, but I have not had a mood swing in 7 minutes.” Tanner is now 17 months and is a little wild child. He is fearless, loves to climb, jump, wonder, and explore. As much as I love his curiosity, it also gives me anxiety that he has no problem walking away from me.. or should I say running away. When you hit your third trimester and start to feel physically tired, chasing after a toddler is no joke. Where are all my second time mamas? Exhausting!! With that being said, I really want to take these next two months before baby sister is born to work with Tanner to stay close, hold hands, and look for mama and dada.
On the emotional side, I am worried about bringing a second baby into our home and rocking Tanner’s world. I know it will be a huge adjustment for all of us. I held a friend’s baby the other day and Tanner wanted me to pick him up too. In the past, this has never bothered him so it will be interesting to see how he reacts to having his baby sister home the first few weeks. I know he will eventually adjust fine and be a great big brother, but the beginning and the unknown is what scares me!
Even though my nerves run high these days, I am SOOOOO EXCITED!!! A BABY GIRL! We feel so blessed that we will get to experience each gender so now maybe we will be two and done? Who knows, I LOVE babies so I could see myself wanting one more down the road depending on how adjusting to a second baby goes. Our sweet girl is all set, we received so many kind gifts, and her nursery is just about complete! I do feel myself starting to physically slow down some so I am glad that we started on her nursery early. The second pregnancy has gone by so fast!!
Lastly, I wanted to share how I am praying for a VBAC (vaginal birth after c section). To keep it short, I had a c-section at 37 weeks with Tanner due to preeclampsia, pregnancy-induced high blood pressure. Just because I became preeclamptic with Tanner, does not mean I will get it again with number two. My blood pressure has been great and I have been exercising regularly, which is something I did not do the first time around. If my blood pressure and blood tests remain normal, my doctor will let me try for a VBAC, but my body has to go into labor naturally. Meaning, they do not want to induce me if my body does not do it on its own. I have been praying that I will get to experience a vaginal childbirth, especially because it may be our last baby. I know this is what God designed my body for, so I am hoping labor will happen naturally. I wanted to share this because it weighs heavy on my heart everyday as we get closer to baby girl’s due date. I will share one more maternity update in the beginning of December and if we know a c-section or a VBAC will be in our future.
I hope everyone has a great weekend and Halloween!!! I am loving all of the pumpkin photos and halloween costumes on IG!
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